Yesterday was the last lesson of my undergraduate degree. Yes, the last.
For many people, graduation was the end, but also the beginning of a new, exciting chapter of life. For me, it simply meant I was stripped off my shield and left with nothing in the middle of a desert. There are 2 reasons for this feeling:
(1) I am in Australia now is for my undergraduate study. Now my study has come to an end; what is my purpose here?
(2) My parents gave me this year to think about my Islam identity, and answer them. This year is nearly over. I will have to give them my answer, which, I know, will hurt them deeply. Last year I could use ‘study’ as my excuse to avoid talking to them about Islam, but this year, that excuse is no longer valid. What will I say to them? What will happen to my relationship to my parents?
Mum won’t come for graduation ceremony. She said she would not want to see me in the hijab. I actually don’t care much about graduation ceremony, but hearing that hurts. What will happen when I come back to Vietnam in the next few months?
I guess I need to be more patient. God assures us that He never gives somebody a burden that the person cannot bear. I should put more trust in that statement. And pray, with more sincerity. InshaAllah whatever happens it is the best for my faith.
On a side note, this is a 36 second trailer of my short film ‘Nur’.