Photo: Taken at Uni of Melbourne in August 2015.
Although I have faced separation several times in my life, it doesn’t mean I have become an expert in saying goodbye. Although I’m aware that this life is “nothing but a quick passing enjoyment” (Quran 40:39), it doesn’t mean my heart has fully accepted that fact. In contrast, it still cries bitterly when seeing the people it loves depart.
Many things have happened this year, and everyone around me seems to begin a new chapter of their life. Some get married; some go to another country; some welcome the birth of their new baby.
Suddenly when I go home, I realise that I am alone in the apartment. Suddenly I burst into tears when I don’t know who I should call and talk. Suddenly I realise that there’s only One Being who is listening to my cries, who is witnessing my tears, and who’s seeing through my ego and instinctual soul. That Being is nobody but Allah (God).
Oh Allah, please grant my heart peace and hope in this changing time of my life. Oh Allah, please make it understand the inevitability of separation and the transcience of life. Oh Allah, please make my ego accept that the world doesn’t revolve around me, and that nothing is owned by me.
Please enable me to say sincerely like Imam ash-Shafii: “My heart is at ease knowing that what was meant for me will never miss me, and that what misses me was never meant for me”
“There’s something amazing about this life. The very same worldly attribute that causes us pain is also what gives us relief: Nothing here lasts. What does that mean? It means that the breathtakingly beautiful rose in my vase will wither tomorrow. It means that my youth will neglect me. But it also means that the sadness I feel today will change tomorrow. My pain will die. My laughter won’t last forever but neither will my tears. We say this life isn’t perfect. And it isn’t. It isn’t perfectly good. But, it also isn’t perfectly bad, either.”
― Yasmin Mogahed