This photo, which I took yesterday in St Kilda Beach, captures my feeling whenever I think about my goal. I always feel so small and vulnerable, whilst my goal seems endlessly far away, and the journey to get there is definitely turbulent and adverse.
But through the people I’ve met, through my own experience and my religion, I have learned that to dwell on fear is really the worst excuse to procrastinate. If you take action, there is no guarantee you will fulfill your dreams. But if you don’t, there is a guarantee that you will never get it anyway. Worrying about failure is like wasting energy on something that has never existed and will perhaps not exist.
But you know, as a human, that fear of failure can never entirely disappear. It will always return when you are least aware. In moments like that, I usually say this to my fear: “Just as a bird has the duty to fly, not idling and worrying, my duty is to seek knowledge, act righteous,and help other people with available resources. In other words, working and striving for a good cause is not something I want to do; it is something I need and have to do as a human being. Therefore, true failure is not about being unable to achieve my goal; it is when I let myself convinced by the whisper of my instinctual soul and ego, which says that being lazy, inactive and slothful is acceptable. But it’s not. Nothing in this world is slothful, every being is performing their functions, and I should, too.”
This thinking logic has not given me all what I want in life, but well at least it motivates me to change from ‘stationary’ position to ‘active’ position.